Chapter Tweleve. Fatty mc Fat Fat

Mistaken
Always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around...
Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Fuckin' perfect

‘You going to have anything for breakfast today hun?’ said Mia handing Robyn a menu.
‘No thanks i’m just going to have a glass of water’ Robyn said smiling.
‘What the hell is going on with you? You never pass up maple syrup with pancakes!’ Mia said looking at Robyn worriedly.
‘You know I hate watching you eat maple syrup! Ever since we got doped at mine and all you could do is lick your fingers making that annoying sound!’ Robyn said sipping her glass of water.
‘What you mean like this?’ Mia dipped her finger in maple syrup and made the annoying sucking sound. Robyn hit her over the head with the menu and they laughed really loudly.
‘What are you two laughing so much about?’ said Taylor coming into their booth where they were sitting.
‘Robyn won’t have any breakfast so i’m just going to have to force feed it down her’ said Mia flinging a bit of bacon into Robyn’s mouth. Taylor did the same, both of them laughing at her. Robyn spat out the forced food out of her mouth and got up.
‘You guys don’t have to be such jerks about it’ she walked off in a huff and left the Diner.
‘What is going on with her recently?’ said Mia to Taylor who was analyzing the menu.
‘I just thought its been her time of the month.’ Taylor said not noticing the concerned look on Mia’s face.
‘Well I can’t stay, I meeting Nicki Minaj in 5 to talk over the contract deal we have with her. See you Tay’ Mia walked off. Taylor didn’t want to eat breakfast alone and sat there waiting for one of his brothers to walk in. He watched the door open and who should walk in? Leila.
‘Oh Taylor. What are you doing here?’ Leila said shocked to see him but also happy.
‘Errr I was just about to get some breakfast, would you like to join me?’
‘Sure, i’m absolutely starving!’ she said taking her seat and scanning the menu.
Robyn was half way up the street when she realised she left her phone on the table in the Diner, she started walking back, embarrassed to face Mia and Taylor again. She walked into the restaurant and saw the back of Taylor’s head and walked up to him.
‘Sorry babe did I leave my phone..here’ she looked across the table and saw Leila sitting up staring up at her. Robyn looked down at Taylor with one eye-brow raised.
‘Uhhp erm, Leila you’ve met my girlfriend Robyn?’ said Taylor awkwardly thinking to himself ‘SHITTT’
‘Yeh I did the other night, Nice to meet you’ Leila said extending her hand. Robyn shook it and nodded.
‘Yeah, my phone?’ Robyn pointed at it for Taylor to pass it to her. He hesitated and handed it over. Robyn walked away from the table and made her way to the door.
‘Just give me one second please?’ Taylor said leaving to booth to go catch up with his girlfriend. He pushed the door shut as Robyn tried to get out.
‘Stay and have something to eat babe, please? You look so pale and fragile these days. It’s like you havn’t eaten since...I can’t remember.’ Taylor said with worrying eyes.
‘I do eat. What are you talking about? I’m late for a meeting with the producers for the next video, I’ve got to go. Enjoy your..’ Robyn looked back at Leila..’your breakfast.’ She kissed him on the cheek and left. Taylor stood by the door for a second and watched Robyn get into a taxi. He did notice a change in her. Her clothes were baggy and her cheeks lost some weight. He wondered if she did have an eating disorder. He didn’t like the way she looked. He loved how she had curves and wasn’t stick thin. He pondered as Leila was speaking rubbish to him about the old days.
‘Well breakfast was lovely Tay, thanks for paying’ Leila said as they walked out of the restaurant.
‘Yeh, sure no problem’ The two stood there awkwardly. ‘Uhm do you need a lift home?’ Taylor said pointing at his car.
‘Sure! Only if your sure though’ Leila said as Taylor lead her to the door and opened it for her.
Leila was looking at Taylor as he drove. He had his ray bands on and his hair was blowing in the breeze. She had always been attracted to him, even when they were kids and he looked like a girl.
‘This is me here’ Leila got out of the car. ‘Say, I’ve got some old pictures of us and your brothers somewhere in my house, why don’t you come in and we can have a look for them?’ Leila said innocently.
‘I don’t know, I said i’ll me Zac to do some recording’ Taylor said starting up his engine again.
‘Oh come on, it won’t take long. I have a pretty good idea where they are?’ said Leila opening the car door again. Taylor reluctantly got out and went into Leila’s house with her.
She lead him through the corridor into a room at the back of her house. There were boxes and junk everywhere. The two began to look through them until Leila yelled. ‘I FOUND THEM! Oh my god we look so so so cute!’ Taylor looked over and smiled. It was them two naked by a paddling pool eating ice lollys (they were 3). All the other pictures were when they were drunk or doing drugs together.
‘This one, oh my  we look totally wasted!’ said Leila showing him the picture. Both of them were holding each other with sweaty faces and massive pupils. Taylor’s smile dropped as he looked at the picture.
‘Thats the night we had....’ he stopped in mid sentence as he felt Leila’s hands around his neck.
‘You know I miss you. Us. What we had.’ She edged closer for his lips and closed her eyes. Before Taylor knew it she had his lips on his. He tried to squirm free but her grip and her lips were too much to let go. Her scent paralyzed him and he was stiff. He didn’t kiss her back, nor did he try to let go of her.
‘Shall we go upstairs?’ She said with bedroom eyes.
‘I...I can’t. I won’t do this to Robyn, not again!’ He threw Leila off him and headed to the door. He turned and gave one look at her. ‘What we had, was nothing. Why don’t you get a hair cut and eat a bit of meat. Will do you the world of good’ Taylor smiled at her shocked horrified face and left to his car. Leila stood there speechless as she watched Taylor drive off. She wasn’t going to give up on him that easily. If Robyn was the only person in her way of being with Taylor, she had to be taken care off.
Robyn flushed the toilet and wiped her mouth clean. She looked at herself in the mirror and analyzed her fat. She had already lost half a stone in 1 week. She took a couple of diet pills and hid them at the back of the medicine cabinet. She jumped as she closed the door mirror to find Taylor standing there.
‘God Tay...how long were you standing there?’ She said looking at him through the mirror about to brush her teeth.
‘Long enough. What are you doing to yourself Robyn! It’s wrong and not healthy!’ he said coming towards her. He touched her shoulder and she shrugged him off.
‘I have to do this!’ she said spitting out the minty toothpaste and washing her mouth out.
‘What on earth makes you think you HAVE to?!’ he said beginning to shout
‘YOU TAYLOR! Your sly comments and the way you look at me sometimes! You make me feel worthless and disgusting sometimes’ she began to cry.
‘Oh Robyn you stupid girl. I never meant any of that! I was joking, your absolutely perfect babe!..I’m sorry!’ said Taylor edging closer to go and hug her
‘Don’t..don’t’ she said walking away pointing her finger at him. ‘I’ll stop’ she said sitting at the end of the bed.
‘Good because it is a joke. Any woman who does it is a joke’ he said looking at himself in the mirror.
‘Like you friend back in the Diner? She clearly does it all the time.’ Robyn said slyly.
‘Yeah well I won’t be seeing her ever again. She’s bad news babe, and I want you to keep away from her too’
‘Oh don’t you worry, I will.’ Robyn looked at him inquisitively. ‘Has something happened?’
‘No, she just wants me. Naturally. But i’ve got you my darling. My beautiful Robyn.’ He crouched down in front of her and kissed her forehead. Robyn looked at him with concern.
‘What? Why?’ she said pushing his hands from her legs.
Taylor sighed and looked down, knowing an argument was about to happen. ‘I gave her a lift back to her house and she invited me in to find old pictures of us in our childhood. I thought it was all innocent until she had her hands all over me, and we kissed.’ With that Robyn stood up in a gasp. ‘Look babe, don’t freak out.’
‘You kissed her back? For how long?!’ Robyn started to breath heavily through her nose. Taylor backed off and answered her.
‘For a good 7 seconds, but that is when I threw her off me and left telling her that I couldn’t do it to you, not again’ Taylor looked apologetic but Robyn was not falling for it.
‘You kissed her back’ she whispered with tears streaming down her face. Taylor tried to hug her but she didn’t respond.
‘Don’t be upset. Please?’ Her almost lifeless body was pressed against his as he tried to get her to look at him.

‘Is this what our relationship is always going to be like? Me finding out your dirty secrets, constantly?’  She tore from his grasp and slowly walked away from him. She turned at the door saying, ‘You know what Taylor, you haven’t even said sorry to me?’ She gestured her hand up just before he was about to speak (probably to say the words ‘i am sorry’ but it was too late) ‘I’ll be at Mia’s, don’t expect me to do the show tonight.’

And with that Robyn left Taylor hanging.  He felt ashamed with himself and completely gutted. He knew it will all blow over but, like always he was in the doghouse and had to find a way for her to forgive him. He sighed and made his way to the studio. On the way past Mia’s room he left a post it note saying ‘Come to the show and watch us tonight. Stay with me? Please. Tay x’ He hoped that Robyn would at least come and watch their last show of the season, even though it was without her by his side singing.

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