Chapter Nine - Do you Trust me?

'Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on'

Robyn refused to do anything sexual with Taylor after her ordeal. Months passed and the two didn’t do anything but kiss. One evening Taylor was really feeling to make love with Robyn. He began to kiss her lightly and slowly Robyn got into it. She began to rip of his shirt and kiss his bare shoulders. His hand went to remove her bra and knickers. But she flinched.

‘come on Robyn, it’s been so long since we..’ Robyn interrupted him.

‘I know, i know. I’m ready’ She looked at Taylor with uncertain eyes and before she knew it he was beginning to enter her. It hurt and she wailed in pain. Not pleasure. Taylor wasn’t enjoying seeing his girl in pain because of him and decided to stop.

‘It’s too soon i think for you’ He said putting his boxers back on. He turned around to find Robyn crying into her pillow.

‘Im sorry Taylor I really am. I just can’t right now’ Taylor nodded and left her to cry.

He stood by his hotel door thinking how much he needed to have sex. He decided to take his mind of things by going into the studio and working on some songs. He entered the room to find Mia, alone with a bottle of vodka. She was crying on the phone to someone. Taylor didn’t make his presence known and decided to listen to her conversation.

‘Zac are you coming home tonight? You’ve done nothing but go wild since we got to Colorado. I want to be with you’ She waited for a reply.

‘I’m not smothering you! You asked me to be your girlfriend and i’ve got nothing but...fine. No fine. At least call me before you come back to the room. I need to make up the spare bed’ She said hanging up. She hears a creak.

‘Who’s there?’ She asked annoyed.

‘Only me, don’t shoot’ Taylor joked. He walked in and analysed Mia’s face. ‘Have you been crying?’ pretending he had not heard the conversation.

‘Oh don’t take any notice of me. But you can answer one question for me, Why is your brother a complete bastard’ Her English accent made Tay smile.

‘He’s young Mia. And not as mature as me and Ike. He wants to party and thats it. I was like that before I met Robyn’. He said taking a shot of vodka.

‘You two are so lucky to be happy in love. I’m sorry about your baby though, rotten shame’ Mia said putting her hand in Tay’s shoulder.

‘It’s fine. And ye i guess we are lucky to have each other. But she’s acting weird too’ Tay said reaching for another glass and poured one for Mia. ‘To crap love!’ he said raising his glass. Mia smiled and joined him. After about 7 more shots the two were laughing their heads off rolling around on the floor.

‘Hey Tay, wanna hear my amazing singing?’ She opened the booth and began to sing ‘My heart will go on’ queit badly. Taylor laughed and joined her, not noticing he pressed the record button. #IMPORTANT, REMEMBER# He stood behind her and mimicked the film when Leonardo holds Kate Winslet at the front of the ship.

‘Do you trust me?’ Tay said taking Mia’s hands into a flight positon

‘I trust you’ Mia said smiling and laughing.

Soon Tay had his arms wrapped around Mia and she looked back at him. They hesitated as they’re lips were only seconds apart. Mia pressed her lips against Tay’s and he kissed back. Robyn was pushed out of his mind thanks to the vodka and he was only interested in Mia and what was under her clothes.

She turned to him and whispered ‘This is crazy, but don’t stop’ She wrapped her arms round Taylors neck and pushed her body closer to his. He sat her up on the table nearby and removed her top and jeans. She did the same to him.

‘Oh hello big boy’ she said as her hand went down his boxers. He smiled and took of her bra. Their naked bodies touched and all Taylor could think about was getting his leg over and doing Mia. She moaned gently as he teased her gently with his fingers. Sooner or later the two were intertwined with eachother. Each push and thrust made Mia dig her nails in Taylors back. Slyly, without Taylor noticing she scratched into his back her initials. Not knowing herself that she was doing it. Taylor loved how Mia was far more rougher then Robyn, every bite and scratch made the moment more sensual and hot. Their sticky sweaty bodies changed positions and Mia was now on top. She leant down and kissed Taylor, afterwards saying ‘say you won’t regret this in the morning?’ Taylor didn’t answer and roughly turned her around. Ready to come he moved faster and harder and the deed was done. Taylor sat back catching his breath. Mia just lied there giggling to herself. She had not sobered up yet clearly. She turned to Taylor and said ‘That was amazing, was it good for you?’ Taylor looked away and nodded. He felt this extreme feeling of guilt pass over him as he got up to put his clothes on.

‘You going to be okay getting back to your room?’ Taylor said as they left the studio together.

‘I’ll be fine?’ Mia said confused to why Taylor was being so oblivious. She took his hand. He ripped it away from her and pushed her vigorously against the wall.

‘Don’t touch me Mia. I don’t want Robyn getting one whiff of this mess. Also, I don’t want Zac to find out either, do you understand me? Now go back to your room and wait for him to return!’ Taylor said. He moved away from her face and began to make his way back to his room in the hotel. Before he could get out of ear shot Mia shouted ‘You’ll be back for more! They always come back for more’ Taylor stopped in his tracks and turned around and said quietly ‘I don’t think so’ Was he lying to himself? It was a pretty hot shag with Mia. Different with Robyn who believed more in making love then hot and rough sex. He didn’t know what he was thinking. He went back to his room and found Robyn asleep in their bed. Their bed, where they were suppose to make love at night. He felt guilty but believed he had needs too. He slid into bed after a shower, the smell of vodka and Mia clung to him like a bad cologne. He wrapped his arms around his girls lifeless body and watched her breath in rhythmically.

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‘Where did you go last night Tay?’ Said Robyn coming out of the shower wrapping a towel around her. Taylor was in bed watching the news.

‘Err went out with Zac to a bar and had a few drinks. Nothing big.’ He lied

‘Uhuh. I thought i smelt alcohol on your breath when you came back last night. Whats the plan today then my sweet’ She lay next to him, her body still wet from the shower.

‘I think we better start recording some stuff for the album, we’re a bit behind. You up for it today?’ He said stopping the drops of water from falling of her skin. She looked up at him and smiled. He saw the innocent look in her eyes and again felt instantly guilty. If only she knew what had happened the night before.

‘I’m going to call Mia and see if she wants to come and sit in, I feel like she’s been feeling down lately about Zac. You should really speak to hejxUmVlgKe3SNokw8q1T0YFtCF6Dr461yylor stood up and stopped her getting the phone.

‘Urrrr i think Ike has already told her about the studio session today, no need to call’ His warm smile melted Robyn and she turned shrugging her shoulders to get changed.

As Tay and Robyn entered the Studio he saw the empty glasses which he and Mia drunk from last night. Mia’s lipstick stained the edge and a smell of her perfume lingered in the air. Taylor got a shiver down his spine and inspected to room to see if there was any evidence that he was there the night before. Ike and Zac were already playing their instruments and looked hungover. Taylor prayed Zac would not show him up by saying he wasn’t with him last night. The door opened again, it was Mia. She had sunglasses over her eyes and a coffee in her hand. She smiled at Robyn, Ike and Zac, but not at Taylor. GREAT Tay thought to himself. She’s gonna make things awkward. Everyone made idle chatter and Mia and Robyn were having a good gossip about other celebrities. Taylor was setting up in the booth while Robyn put on some headphones and listened to the last things that were recorded. She came across a recording that had not been named or timed. She smiled as she heard Mia singing to Titanic. Just as she was about to turn to Mia and laugh about it with her she heard another voice.

‘Do you trust me?’ she heard through the headphones and her heart sank as she listened to the two voices kissing noises. She knew it was Taylor’s sweet subtle voice but was sure once the moaning started. Her horrified face stayed frozen. She didn’t blink. She didn’t breathe. She just stared into space.

‘Babe, you want to start up the music?’ Taylor shouted down the microphone bringing her down to earth again. Robyn looked at Taylor with hurt eyes. How dare he lie to her and sleep with her best friend. She ripped out the plug which made the sound go all around the room.

‘ohh, Oh Taylor, keep doing it, ohh ohhh yeh’

‘yeah Mia, take it. Take it. Ohh yeahhhh’

Robyn stood there staring at Taylor’s reaction. His face was in horror as he heard the sex sounds from his own lips. He looked up at Robyn who had tears in her eyes. Mia was the first to talk.

‘Robyn it was a mistake, im sorry you weren’t suppose to find out..i..’ WHACK! Robyn smacked Mia in the face making her fall to the floor. She grabbed her bag and left the studio room. No one helped Mia up. Not even Zac, he was hurting too. Taylor came out of the booth and was confronted by Zac who pinned him up against the wall.

‘What the fuck is wrong with you Tay! Why would you do that? To me?’ said Zac screaming in Taylors face.

‘Like you give a shit about Mia!’ said Taylor breaking free and helping Mia up from the floor

‘Whats happening to you man? Everything you touch turns to shit! Everything!’ said Zac watching Taylor pack his stuff up.

‘Don’t you think I know that?! I’ve lost everything and you love it Zac, admit it.’ Taylor said putting his jacket on.

‘Yeh I love it. I love the fact that you’ve had my girlfriend and no longer with one of the most amazing girls you’ve ever been with. Yeh its fucking amazing!’ said Zac leaning against the wall beginning to break down in tears. Mia ran to him crying and whispering ‘Im sorry’ in his ear. He let her hug it out with him and soon they were holding eachother. Zac was quick to forgive Mia, knowing he lead her to cheat by being a shitty boyfriend. He realised to keep her, he had to be mature about his relationships and prove his feelings for her. Taylor watched as Zac and Mia were forgiving eachother and realised it was his turn to do the grovelling to Robyn.

‘Go to her’ said Ike analysing Taylor’s notion towards the door. ‘Just let her hear you out’

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Taylor ran back to the Hotel room praying that Robyn had not already left him. As he walked up the hall he was thinking about what the hell he was going to say. A simple ‘im sorry’ followed by an enthusiastic sexual advance would defiantly not cut it. He had to mean it. He opened the door to find Robyn outside on the balcony having a cigarette. She didn’t usually smoke. Only when she was distraught or depressed. Great. He slid open the glass door and said the first thing that came into his head.

‘Don’t jump?’

‘What?’ she said turning around. Her eyes blotchy from crying.

‘Sorry, my idea of a bad joke. Im not going to ask for your forgiveness Robyn. Im not going to ask anything from you again if you want to leave me. But im begging you, please don’t give up on me. I honestly don’t know what I’d do without you. Mia..’ Robyn looked away as she heard the name’..she..was absolutely nothing. We both consoled each other and we wanted someone for the evening who wanted us back.’

‘You saying I don’t want you?’ Robyn scoffed.

‘Not sexually. You close your eyes whenever we make love..it’s hard to feel wanted. It doesn’t console anything that I did with you friend. But it is a serious problem when your girlfriend flinches every time you touch her’

‘Well Mia clearly doesn’t flinch when you touch her. Just be with her!’ said Robyn beginning to cry again.

‘No’

‘Why not!?!’

Taylor walked up to Robyn and looked deep in her eyes.

‘She’s not you’ His words echoed in her head. She knew that he was sorry. But being the stubborn girl she was Robyn walked back in the room and got her suitcase down.

‘Please don’t do this!’ said Taylor closing the suitcase.

‘Taylor, no I have to I can’t stay in the same room can I?’

‘Yes, yes you can. I’ll sleep on the sofa! Please don’t leave me.’ The look of desperation fell on his face as he watched Robyn remove her engagement ring.

‘Keep it. I don’t want it’ He put the ring in her hand and clung onto it. She didn’t let go. Taylor moved in closer to her. His CK scent hung around her and she wanted to be close to him more. She stopped herself and looked at the floor. The touch of Taylor’s warm hand on her chin lifting her up into his eye line was too much for Robyn to handle. She took a breath in and lifted her hands on his shoulders. Taylor knew what this meant and carefully put his arms around her waist.

‘The show must go one right?’ Taylor smiled and took her in his embrace.

‘Im sorry, I love you?’ He said kissing her forehead. ‘I’m going to treat you tonight. Anything you want is on me. Anything’

‘I want..you on me’ Robyn said with a devil look in her eye. ‘Tonight, right now I need some fresh air.’ She kissed him slightly on the lips and left the room giving him a smile. Taylor sighed in relief and sat on the bed smiling to himself. He pulled it off and kept his girl. He was over the moon.

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