Chapter Four - Say it

'Oh, I, I need you in my arms, need you to hold
You're my world, my heart, my soul and if you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you? I want to know'

Taylor woke up before Robyn this morning to find them both fully clothed and condom wrapper free. He never had a girl sleep in his bed before without fucking them. Strange. But there was a reason last night. A girl he cared about got hurt and he was damned if he wasn’t going to be there for her for the rest of the trip. He wrapped his arms around the slim lifeless body that laid there asleep without a care in the world. He decided he would do something nice for her. He ordered room service to bring up breakfast and a single rose for decoration. When she awoke, again hungover, Robyn saw the beautiful platter of food and flowers on the table nearby and Tay setting down the knife and forks. He did not notice she was awake so she decided to wrap her arms behind him and said thank you. They both sat at the table enjoying their breakfast until Tay said ‘Do you remember what happened last night?’ Robyn looked up at him and set her toast down. ‘Yes. And thank you for saving me. God know what would have happened if you didn’t walk in’ she said sipping her orange juice.

‘Exactly Robyn, what happened could have been a lot worse, you could be in hospital maybe’ Taylor said angrily.

‘Your over exaggerating. I have a tendency to get myself in situations too big for my own liking. We all learn from our mistakes’ Robyn said trying to sound wise and noble. Taylor didn’t answer.

He continued saying. ‘This is our last day together, what have we planned?’

Robyn looked up at him. She had totally forgotten the weekend had to end at some point. Taylor sounded as if he didn’t care that he would never see her again. She was slightly tired of playing these games with him and decided to get up and say ‘I might leave it up to Mia today and go home. This weekend has been way to much for me.’ She said this grabbing her clothes with one hand, looking pissed off.

‘Wait, what? You want to go home then rather spend the day with me?’ Taylor said shocked.

‘Oh I’m sorry if I don’t fall to your feet Mr Hanson because you’re a gorgeous pop star who expects every fan to fall in love with them in a day’ Robyn said half dressed and getting ready to leave the house.

‘So this is it, I’m never going to see you again?’ Taylor said hurt and moving towards her. He pulled her close to him wanting an answer.

Robyn replied, ‘If you say it I will’

‘Say what?’ Taylor replied confused. Robyn was hurt that Taylor didn’t realise instantly what she meant. She backed away stuttering.

‘Bye..Tay..Taylor. Have a safe..flight. I got to erm..go.’ She said taking one last glance and walking out of the hotel room. Half way down the hall she heard Taylor yell ‘ROBYN, WHAT WAS I MEANT TO SAY?’ He got no reply as she walked round the corner crying.

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‘You idiot! You were meant to say you loved her’ yelled Zac after hearing the story Taylor had told him.

‘What I don’t love her!’ Taylor said thinking whether he did or didn’t. His mind immediately said no. But his heart felt an ache that he had lost her forever and he was incredibably upset about it. Zac gave him a look and Taylor got up and asked ‘Shit bro, I love the girl...i need to see her before we leave. Is that a good thing to do?’

Taylor left Robyn a million messages to come meet him at the airport. She hadn’t replied to him. He waited anxiously outside the terminal hoping to see a black cab pull up and find her inside. But no such luck. He called Mia a dozen times too, but her only answer to why Robyn isn’t answering his messages was ‘She’s hurt Tay.’ Taylor took his phone in his hand and tried one last time to call Robyn. No answer. He left a message saying ‘I’m going into the airport now..its too late to say good bye properly so im going to try my best to your answer machine..’ Taylor sounded sarcastic..’I really had an amazing time in London with you Robyn and i truly am sorry if things didn’t work out as we hoped. Look me up doll face. I..I..’Taylor hesitated and decided to hang up the phone. He took one last breath of London air and stepped inside the terminal making his way back to the USA.

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