Chapter Eight - loss

'Oh Life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
And this feelin' that I can go back'


Three weeks later Robyn’s bump was beginning to show. She knew that sooner or later she wouldn’t be able to hide the fact that she’s pregnant. She looked at herself in the mirror, trying on different outfits she wears on stage in front of thousands of fans. She would suck in, put on extra tights for elastic, but it was no good. The bump still showed. *Sigh*. She felt her stomach and smiled, all she really cared about was Taylor being there for her. She looked down at her hand to her simple engagement ring and grinned.

‘Hey babe, are you ready to go yet?’ yelled Taylor from the bedroom. He sounded irritated.

‘Take a pill im almost done!’ said Robyn coming out of the bathroom tieing her hair up. ‘You nervous?’ she continued.

‘What, that im about to tell my parents and the press that my girlfriend is now my fiancé and pregnant with my child? No not at all.’ He said fixing his shirt cuff.

‘We can’t keep it from them long. I don’t know who will take it worse, Diana and Walker or the fans’ She said looking at her phone. ‘The car is here to pick us up, lets go’

It was a blur. Lunch with the Hanson’s was nerve racking enough but to tell Tay’s parents the situation between him and Robyn was torture. As soon as the words ‘marriage’ and ‘pregnant’ came out of Taylor’s mouth both Walker and Diana Hanson’s mouths dropped.

‘Mom, don’t look at me like that. It couldn’t be helped, im sorry. I love Robyn and we’re going through with it all’ said Taylor taking Robyn’s hand and squeezing it. She felt instantly safer.

‘We’re happy you’ve made the right decision by marrying Robyn. But...its reckless behaviour. I never suspected it from you Tay’ said Walker and Diana nodding with him.

The rest of the Lunch seemed to drag on, talking about dates and plans for the wedding. Then a question was directed at Robyn who had been sitting in silence for the past half hour.

‘What about your parents Robyn? Wouldn’t they like to come over and meet us?’ Said Diana smiling.

‘Er my dad and I don’t speak and my mum is pretty busy and is in court all the time. But she will most defiantly come to the wedding. I told her the other night mine and Taylor’s situation. Her reaction was...well like you guys’ Robyn said stiffly thinking about her words carefully.

The drive from the restaurant to the press call was silent. Taylor was sitting in deep thought, thinking about what he was going to tell the public.

‘Just leave the talking to me babe kay?’ Taylor said smiling.

‘Good, I have no idea what to say. I’ll just smile. As always’ Robyn said slyly. 

The camera’s were clicking and flashing as Tay and Robyn stepped out of the Limo. They were lead to a room filled with news reporters. Robyn thought to herself, ‘there is so much other news out there, whats the big deal with me and Tay’ As they sat down Taylor took a deep sigh as he began his speech explaining how happy he was about the new album and how the single is number one.

‘Taylor! Taylor! Is it true that you and Robyn are breaking up?’ said a woman reporter ready with her recorder to hear what Tay had to say.

‘Quite the contrary. Me and Robyn are engaged’ A massive gasp came from the crowd as those words left his lips. He continued ‘We have just received the brilliant news that Robyn is pregnant. And we have decided to get married and make a family’

‘How do you know it’s yours?’

‘When will the wedding be?’

‘Are you marrying her because you love her or feel guilty getting her knocked up?’

Robyn felt faint. She couldn’t stand all these questions. She swore she heard the word ‘whore’ and ‘slut’ being yelled out by fans on the way out of the press release. Suddenly everything went black and she couldn’t stand. She fell back into Taylor’s arms and heard muffle sounds from his lips. It sounded like ‘Robyn, what’s wrong?’ She couldn’t respond as she was carried off. Cameras flashed and Robyn was taken to the car.

‘Quick get her to the hospital’ Taylor said to the driver. He held Robyn close to him telling her to stay awake. Then he noticed Robyn’s jeans damp with blood by her crotch. He realised what this meant.

‘I’m sorry, but your fiancé has miscarried’ Said Doctor Hartful looking at his clip board. ‘She succumbed to a lot of stress and constant feeling of anxiety which proved to much for the baby to handle. And also, there was a problem with the umbilical chord. The baby was not being fed enough to grow, I’m sorry, you can try again’ He left Taylor standing at the foot of Robyn’s bed. She was looking away from him. She didn’t want him to look at her.

‘It would have been a girl’ she said as a tear trickled down her cheek. Taylor didn’t reply. She took off her engagement ring and passed it to Taylor.

‘What are you doing? Put it back on!’ He said concerned.

‘Well now you have no obligation to marry me, I lost our child. It’s over right?’ She said going into hysterics.

‘No, no it’s not over. Keep the ring. I still want to marry you Robyn. There just is no rush anymore’ He said sitting at the foot of the bed rubbing her leg.

‘It’s all my fault’ she said with her head in her hands.

‘What? You didn’t do anything! These things happen babe. It’s not the end for us!’ Tay said sincerely.

‘So you’re not mad at me?’ Robyn said sniffing.

‘No, im not. You really scared me today though Robyn. I don’t want to go through that again’ He said cuddling up to her. She rested on his chest.

‘I would have called her Penelope’ Robyn said smiling.

‘Penny, I like it’ Taylor hugged his girl until she fell asleep with tears still in her eyes.

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