Chapter Three - Regret

'Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe
So take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath'

The next morning Robyn woke up before Taylor. Her head was banging and her body was sore. She tried to remember what happened last night and gasped. She looked over to find Taylor’s naked upper body spread out across the King size bed. She buried her face in her hands and her eye’s started to sting. She quickly got up and put on her clothes. She didn’t know what she was feeling, happy, sad, shocked, or sluttish. She would hate Taylor to think she would just sleep with him only because he was famous, or with anyone after spending one day with them. She ran into her hotel room finding Mia asleep on the couch. She had a shower and began to think very hard on what she was going to do when she next had to face him within the next few hours.

Mia had a terrible hangover and didn’t feel like talking to Robyn about the night before. She had embarrassed herself by throwing up in front of Zac just before he was about to kiss her. Looks like both girls needed a good lesson on alcohol and the aftermath of it. They drearily walked to breakfast in the lobby, both have a hell of a lot of coffee and met the guys in the limo waiting for them outside. Robyn had various missed calls and texts from Taylor saying ‘Why didn’t you wake me to say you were leaving?’..Last night was fun huh?’..’are we speaking?’ ..’Call me, i’m worried now.’ As the girls entered the limo both remained silent as the car moved away from the hotel. Zac broke the silence by asking how their heads were and both of them replied with a groan. Robyn found it hard not to look over at Taylor who had a desperate look on his face. He looked angry so with one glance she decided she wasn’t going to look at him anymore. He did look sexy angry though. ‘no no no stop Robyn’ she shook out all memorise of Taylor and focused on the day ahead.

Because Ike had missed out on yesterday the girls thought it would be nice to do something he would like. Ike wanted to go see the Tate Modern which was an art gallery. Sounded boring but they thought it would be best to do something relaxing and quiet. As Robyn looked through all the arts and crafts she heard a familiar voice whisper ‘What the hell are you playing at’ It was Taylor pretending to be interested in the painting in front of them. ‘Listen if I’ve done something wrong then tell me, I would like to know’ he said hissing at Robyn.

‘I’m no good at confrontation Tay, i’m british for heaven sake.’ Said Robyn moving on to the next painting.

‘Don’t bullshit me Robyn!’ he said trying to get him to face her grabbing her arm.

‘Tay, you’re hurting my arm. Please let go’ she said squirming free.

‘Then talk to me! Please babe!’ the look of desperation was too much to handle.

‘I was drunk last night and I didn’t know what I was thinking..I just didn’t want you too..’

Tay interrupted ‘Oh yeh, I get it. You regret everything that happened last night? He sounded angry and started to go red.

‘Taylor it’s not that! I never thought I’d lose my virginity to someone I had only known for a day...you took advantage of me!’ she said hissing at him at the thought that he thinks she regrets everything.

‘You said you wanted it! I asked you so many times!’ he said beginning to shout.

‘I was drunk Tay! More then you anyway!...you just wanted to get your leg-over!’ a tear came down her face and she turned away from him.

‘Is that what you think?’ Tay said lowering his voice. He sounded hurt. Robyn didn’t answer and Taylor walked away holding back the anger he had inside. How could someone he shared a special connection with get him so wrong?

It was a very emotional moment watching Taylor walking away from her. She got so mad at him for thinking it was normal to sleep with someone after a day. She didn’t want to fall into this never ending hole she was slipping into. Love was a subject Robyn had very little interest in. She believed it was an illusion and wasn’t real. However she was feeling something in the pit of her stomach. She wondered what it was. Was she falling for Tay?

She went to sit down and take in all the events that have happened her over the last few days. Then she heard a voice that she hadn’t heard before.

‘smoke?’ it said as she saw a box of Lucky strikes in front of her.

‘No thanks mr...err’

‘Call me Dom, what can I call you?’ she looked up to see an amazingly good looking guy looking down on her. He was around her age. Maybe a little older but he was beautiful either way. He was a spitting image of Ben Barnes with a hint of Aaron Johnson in the way he smiled. She was awe struck.

‘I’m Robyn..Robyn Dollan’ she said still analyzing his face.

‘Lovely name’ He smiled her a winning grin and lit up a cigarette. ‘So how do you find the gallery...boring huh?’

‘It’s relaxing enough i guess, never been to into my art, failed that at school and never looked back on it’ Robyn smiled back at the man who had taken a seat next to her. He told her he would love for her to come to Lunch with him at the gallery’s small cafe. She told him she was here with friends but will let them know now.

‘Guys go ahead to Lunch without me, I’ll meet you at the imax in 2 hours’ she said hurriedly.

‘Where are you going though?’ Said Mia curiously, also Taylor was listening intently.

‘I’m going to Lunch with this guy I met, Dom.’ Robyn said it a little louder so Taylor could hear every word. A rush of jealousy spewed through him as he walked with his brothers to get lunch. He looked back to watch Robyn be seated by a waitress with the smug looking guy at her side. Robyn too looked over at Taylor looking down, but didn’t give him a second thought.

After a wonderful Lunch with Dom it was time for them to part ways. He exchanged his bb pin with hers and asked her to come to a bar he was promoting later in the evening if she wanted too. She was totally up for it and asked if it was okay to bring her friends, who he recognised were the famous Hanson and thought it would be great if they played a song or too. For a price though. It was all planned..Robyn couldn’t wait to tell the guys.

‘How was your Lunch then?’ Ike said with a little nudge. Taylor looked over intently.

‘It was good, he’s a promoter to a club down in the centre of London, he wondered if we would like to go down there and show our faces? Maybe you guys can play a few songs..at a price of course’ Robyn said looking at the boys expressions. All were up for it except Taylor.

‘Since when did you become our Manager?!’ Taylor said cross armed looking at the beautiful girl in front of him.

‘Taylor, c’mon it will be fun’ Both Ike and Zac said wondering what the hell was up with Taylor.

‘Fine, just something looked fishy about him that’s all. ‘ Everyone ignored him and went to get their imax tickets. Tay and Robyn got seats next to each other by chance and were sperated from everyone else. There was silence whilst they waited for the film to come on. Then Taylor came out with ‘You gonna tell me why you went to Lunch with that guy instead of us?’ he said digging into his pop corn and stuffing his face.

‘It was better than exchanging awkward looks at you at the table. We needed space Tay’ She insisted looking at him stuff his face in disgust.

As Tay swallowed he said ‘He looked like an Asshole if you ask me’ Placing his hand on hers trying to hold it. Robyn tore away.

‘I didn’t ask your opinion Tay, now drop it and lets enjoy the film’ she sat back in her seat and Taylor scoffed. How could he enjoy the film knowing the girl he liked was interested in someone else. He tried to take his mind of it, but he couldn’t

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The club that Dom was promoting looked really alive with colours and flashy new furniture and a bar filled with drinks. Mia straight away ran to the bar to order some shots and drinks. Dom came up from the stage and welcomed the band, getting a warm hello from everyone but Taylor who watched him with evil eyes, hating every word that came out of his mouth. The band began to set up their equipment only planning to play 3 songs and then enjoying the rest of the night. As they sang Robyn watched Taylor put his heart and soul into singing, even though it was a club he still believed every performance counts. He would lock eyes with her and slightly lose focus with what words came next but would be saved by Zac or Ike. He sang ‘Blue Sky’ and ‘Lost without Each other’ and did the unexpected saying his new song was for Robyn, called ‘Go’. Robyn watched as Taylor sat away from his key board and brushed his hair back. He sang with such passion and depth that it made her feel warm inside. She wanted him again. And knew it was not the 5 vodka or cokes she downed beforehand. Or was it?

‘gee guys you were really great up there, you’ve brought so many people in the Club, i couldn’t thank you enough, drinks are on me all night’ Said Dom making a very generous gesture. ‘What can i get you guys and these lovely ladies, wrapping his arm around Robyn flirtatiously.’ Everyone agreed on a nice cold beer and they drank the night away. Taylor was furious at the whole flirting situation between Dom and Robyn. At times he felt to go back to the hotel, but then he would clasp eyes with Robyn, she would smile with a longing need for him, but every time they were alone, he couldn’t approach her knowing she was drunk and disorderly.

‘Have you seen where Robyn went’ Taylor asked curiously to Mia.

‘I don’t know, i think Dom is giving her a tour or something’ Mia shouted through the loud music. Taylor didn’t like the sound of that. He knew Dom’s intentions and went off to search for them.

Meanwhile, the very drunk Robyn was playing in the swivel chair of Dom’s office.

‘I love everything in this room, this club! This town even!’ She said sipping on her, what it seemed hundredth vodka and coke. Dom gave her a look from the corner of the room. He walked towards her and placed his lips on hers. She was confused and pulled her self off him.

‘I don’t think this is a good idea Dom..plea..’ he interrupted her and pinned her up against the wall roughly. She screamed.

‘Get off me you! Please don’t do this, please!’ she pleaded with him but his hands were half way up her skirt and pulled his hand over her mouth. Her muffled screams could not be heard through the loud music outside the room. She began to cry because of the pain and how she really didn’t want this. He pinned her body over the table and inserted himself in her, holding her arms and head down. She kept on screaming ‘Someone help me, please someone’ her crying words were heard and finally someone stepped in. Taylor.

Taylor analyzed the situation to make sure he knew what was going on. His girl was crying her eyes out, being forced down by a man who clearly had no morals and was what it looked like, raping her.

Robyn whispered ‘oh Taylor’ as he entered the room quickly grabbing her away from Dom. He checked to see if she was okay and  turned to the other man in the room.

‘What the fuck do you think your doing?’ he walked slowly towards him and threw the biggest punch in his face. Dom fell to the floor, nose bleeding. Taylor grabbed Robyn and legged it out of the room. Robyn fell to the floor crying. Clutching her bag and arms where Dom had held her so tightly. Taylor put his arms around her saying its over now, and he was going to protect her from now on. She looked up at him and said ‘I’m glad I lost my virginity to you Tay, not someone like Dom, take me home’ Taylor smiled and wiped her eyes. ‘By home do you mean your actual home or the hotel’ Robyn gestured meaning the hotel, so they caught a taxi back and went back holding each other.

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